As you may know, I am single and I have been for years. Most days I love it. Somedays not so much. Oftentimes, I think that it wouldn't be so bad if I had a supportive group of friends around me, but I don't. I know that is something that I need to work on and I am trying.
I still get so heart-achingly lonely.
Yesterday I launched my latest ebook and started my life coaching practice. At the end of the day I had no one to celebrate with. No one to tell me that they were proud of me. I do know so many of you are, never doubt that I am thankful for all of the online support I have. It is truly invaluable. I know my Tribe is proud of me and loves me.
It still would've been nice to hear it in person. To feel a hug, a pat on the back, something. This left me spending a few hours of the day in a funk. I was watching television and of course there had to be that sweet romantic scene with two people cuddled up tenderly in bed.
It made me cry.
I'm very... we'll go with picky... about relationships. I haven't been in one in many years and I honestly think that is for the best. I've had prospects of course, but no one who calls out to me on a spiritual level and if I do embark on a relationship, that's what I want. I know that I'm still young, (I'm 26) but dating doesn't appeal to me. Anyone that I do see myself developing feelings for, just seems to want the kind of friends-with-benefits relationship that these young'uns are into now a'days, and that doesn't ring true to me.
Although that feeling of loneliness doesn't have the power over me that it used to. It will come, it will stay for a bit, and then it will leave. I will not spend a whole day in bed crying. I will not lay lethargic on the couch listening to sad music. I will accept that yes, I am lonely, and yes, this feeling will go away.
I will realize that I am part of something. Something magical and healing. Something beautiful and strong. I am part of you. I am part of the Universe, of the Great Spirit that binds us all together.
It's hard to feel lonely when you know that you're part of that.
How do you deal with feelings of loneliness? I'd love to hear your thoughts.
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