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So this is where I'm at right now. I released my latest project and just like last time I'm descending into darkness. And you know what? That's totally okay. I've realized that this is part of my spiral. See that beautiful picture up there? When I'm creating something I dance among the brightly lit and vibrantly colored tiles and everything feels beautiful and perfect. I feel on top of the world. When I finish my project and release it out into the world I get post-project-blues. Do you ever go through anything like that?
Suddenly what I did doesn't seem good enough and I begin to doubt myself.
I go down the spiral, walking in the in-between. Walking in the dark. I know that the spiral will end and that I will find the brightness again, but the descent down is still dark and lonely. At times like this I do a lot to realign myself with where I want to be. I sleep a lot and spend time relaxing and doing things that don't put demands on my time or stress me out.
I also take a deep look at my feelings and why I feel them.
Some emotions are worth keeping and others just need to be let go of. Lately I've been concentrating on dealing with my "base" emotions. Take insecurity for example, when I feel insecure suddenly I feel this wave of other emotions. Feeling insecure about my work suddenly starts this domino effect of other emotions that really have nothing to do with how I'm really feeling. They just see the opening and they rush in. I sift through them, tossing away the emotions that are just there to be there out of old habits that I'm letting go of.
This part of the spiral leads to wisdom.
I'm contemplating a new tattoo! I've fallen in love with the idea of having a teeny heart tattooed on my wrist as a tangible reminder of the love that I have for myself. Even I sometimes forget to love myself. It's always good to have a reminder!
So how are you doing this week? I'd love to hear from you!
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